I always have grand plans of writing and posting a couple times a week. Well that clearly hasn't happened, has it? But I do have a very great reason why I have been so preoccupied (other than the normal messy children, dogs need food and constant laundry reason). I cannot reveal that reason just yet....but it's pretty awesome!
Anyway, my last post was about the mysterious 6lbs that had attached itself to me, there was no true explanation as to why that happened (and you really don't want to hear my doctor's reason- ick), it just did. But the following week I lost the exact same amount, thank God and then this past week I lost 4lbs and now I am up to 17 total lost! I am elated to say the least!
But more than just the weight loss, I am noticing things are becoming habits to me now. Instead of having rice or pasta as a side, my kids are happily pulling out containers of cut-up watermelon, pineapple, strawberries and grapes. My hubby is also on the plan and we are both making these changes habits. I have always been a salt and carb loving person and now I am not really even craving these items. I'm not saying I never will, but for now I am loving all of the fresh fruit and veggies summer is providing us.
The changes I am having a harder time with are the physical ones. As in physically getting up and moving. But I am working on it. I had two surgeries late last year and one earlier this year and the recovery has not been easy- at all. So at this point I have healed for the most part, there is still some tenderness and I am dealing with some weird "phantom" pain. But I think it is mostly just a mental block. It took SO long for my body to heal from the trauma and damage that was done to it and I'm trying to move past that part. My doctor has cleared me for certain physical activity and I am anxious to get started, but the fear is still there....
So I continue to move through all of these new changes in my life and pray that God gives me the courage and the motivation to just keep moving in this healthy direction. Not all of these changes are easy ones for me and the circumstances of this last year have created a lot of upheaval in many parts of my life. But I continue to move forward and accept theses changes.
I found a quote from Joel Osteen that I really love and feel that it applies perfectly to what has happened to me and what WILL happen next.
"When you go through a loss, a disappointment or a bad break, don't expect to come out the same. Expect to come out better off than you were before."
I'm not the same person I was two years ago, no one is. We all change and grow through the circumstances we encounter. The choice we are all given is how we choose to react to these difficult times. Are we going to close in and refuse to let the world in or are we going to walk out into the sunshine and choose the positive, healthy path God has laid out for us?
Peace~
Melinda
